pause, a second

worst month, in terms of blogging frequency. though i guess all know what i m working on already, everyday, the same group people, same sound, different fun.

the orchestra

usually i cant express what i m thinking under stress and hectic life, that’s why i cant even write a little post. not sure if i will say the wrong thing so better shut up, as usual. the following are points to note regarding the orchestra, what i have learnt at least, or, rethink.

money; classes; musicians; men; emotion; respect; business, management; efficiency; passion; commitment; responsibility; rewards; even, future

everybody asks me why i am working here, why i found the orchestra, why i do something for a group of people technically do not relate to me, then all the question why i am studying law and doing art admin, why i m working for somebody, why i go to all rehearsals, why, all whys

some people, or most of the people, look for reason for doing something, yes, probably you are right. since we all need a clear goal for ultimate achievement, to find the most effective and efficient way to the road of success. though, a big group of people do not care about the aim and concept behind and just work, this is another way of living.

but just this time, i cant give you a proper explanation for so many things i did. all the worries people told me, i wanna say i thought all over, yet i just choose to ignore this time. because, i believe we have to observe, and wait. then plan (maybe)

why cant we sometimes just let the whole thing flow itself? i do not feel like i m very optimistic. i m never the one, right?

again, to declare, i m a super rational and practical person.

i think this is the best way to get what we want, wait. don ask for a reason, since the reasons would come out themselves. i now know the reasons, and some who thought they knew the reasons lost. i am not sure what i am having is faith, i do not fancy this word coz it just doesn’t fit in my style. i only have the instinct that i m right, or at least, wont be very wrong. and i just make things happen and it goes on pretty well.

and the reasons have arrived

 

(… to be con’t)